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~Bisik ku pada bulan

Kembalikan
Temanku,
Kekasihku,
Syurgaku

Tanpa dia
Malam menemaniku

Sepi memelukku

Bulan jangan biar siang
Biar malam ini kelam

Biar ia sepi sepertiku~

Ah! Sepi malam ini benar-benar menguasai hati. Menerobos ke seluruh pelusuk tubuh aku. Aku tidak mahu perasaan sebegini namun ia tetap juga menjengah aku. Pinta hatiku, moga-moga ia tidak akan singgah lama. Cepatlah sepi itu hilang!

Dulu aku sangka aku boleh hidup tanpa sesiapa..Aku boleh hidup seorang diri. Tapi sangkaan aku meleset. Aku sudah tidak seperti dulu. Aku perlukan teman-teman disisi. Tanpa mereka hidup aku hambar dan kosong. Kosong yang langsung tidak membawa makna apa-apa.

Haaiiisssh! Kini aku sedar, aku amat perlukan mereka. Mana kalian semua? Kenapa tinggalkan aku? Aku sendirian....Aku perlukan teman-teman untuk menemani malam-malamku. Aku perlukan teman untuk berbicara. Aku perlukan teman untuk berkongsi cerita. Aku perlukan teman untuk mengusir sepi dihati ini....

Dedicated to my bestest friends eva ~k.eida, nona, karen, nu'ui, kly, ina~ and all my friends. P/s: aku sepi sbb semua dah balik bercuti 'raya'...aku aje yang masih terkontang-kanting lagi kat sini ='(

SEPI ~ Yuni Shara~

Sepi hati terjadi lagi
Mungkin sampai mati aku sepi
Biar senyum hadir di hariku
Namun ini hanya ada di bibirdi bibir saja

Aku ini yang bisa mengerti
Walaupun yang lain mau mengerti
Namun berat beban hidupkubiarkan saja
Biar saja hanya ku yang tahu

Sejarah cinta dan hidupku
Penuh duri dan banyak ranjau
Butuh kesabaran yang penuh
Untuk tetap ku berdiri

Oh.. ada saatnya ku bicara
Bila hatiku telah bulat
Sepanjang ku bisa atasi semua
Aku tetap diam

Woo.. sejarah cinta dan hidupku
Penuh duri dan banyak ranjau
Butuh kesabaran yang penuh
Untuk tetap ku berdiri

Oh.. ada saatnya ku bicara
Bila hatiku telah bulat
Sepanjang ku bisa atasi semua
Aku tetap diam

me and myself ~rose~

Aku mau jadi p.o.k.o.k.

Ada sebatang pokok yang tua....

bila musim hujan,

beberapa helai daunnya akan tumbuh....

bila musim luruh pula,

angin akan menerbangkan semua daunnya....

jika diberi pilihan, yang mana satu yang akan menjadi pilihan hati?

hujan?
angin?

musim?

daun?

atau pokok?

• Aku? Sekiranya aku diberi pilihan, aku mau jadi pokok. Aku suka tengok pokok. Pokok cantik dan menenangkan jiwa. Kehijauan daunnya dapat membawa aku jauh dari dunia yang penuh kesengsaraan. Aku mahu dunia yang sebegitu. Tenang.....

Jawapan:

• MUSIM ~Mencintai dua oarang dalam satu masa~
• ANGIN ~Kamu org ketiga dalam cinta tiga segi~
• POKOK ~Kamu begitu setia pada pasangan~
• DAUN ~Seorang yang playboy/playgirl~
• HUJAN ~Kamu mahu mencari seseorang yang betul-betul cintakan kamu~

me and myself ~rose~

Feeling is u.n.s.t.o.p.p.a.b.l.e.

Sad, hurt, happy, worried, miserable, mad, jealous, and etc. When we sad, we cry. When we mad, we shout. When we happy, we laugh. Those are the feelings that always scatter on mind. As a human being we can't avoid and stop the feeling inside us. Can we? The answer is NO.

Feeling is unstoppable. Why feeling is unstoppable? I guess no one knows.... There is no measurements for feelings [kadang2 terlebih...kadang2 terkurang] Itu lumrah manusia. Bak kata pepatah ~nobody perfect~ Me also can't run from all the feelings [life is full of those mix feeling] What should I do....

Is that wrong to have all the feelings? Is that wrong if we try to express our feelings? For me it is depends on the situation. Sometimes we should express it because not all people knows how we feel and think. But, sometimes silence is golden when you can't think of a good answer...By the way, those feelings make our day and life become more interesting, rite...So, just take the risk, try to love the risk and taste the life.

me and myself ~rose~

Bercanda di tepian P.A.N.T.A.I.

OMG...My otak tengah serabut gila..I am so stress up, rite now!! God please help me...! I need a break from all this but I cant....Selagi shooting xsetel, aku tetap tak dapat hidup dengan tenang ='( Hope everything akan setel dengan cepat and penuh kejayaan...

Someone please take me out of here! Lemas, rimas semua ada... Kalau boleh aku nak pergi pantai. Mengadap laut, dengar bunyi deruan ombak menghempas pantai....Tak pun duduk sorang-sorang sambil menghayati keindahan pantai, melihat lautan yang kebiru-biruan sambil mendengar lagu-lagu yang tenang [mp3 ke or whatsoever] ~ contoh : dengar lagu lucky by Jason Mraz, haaiiisssh...bahagia sungguh,hehehehe...

So, ada sesiapa tak yang sudi nak bawa me ke pantai??? Please....

me and myself ~rose~

I am not perfect

~The reason - Hoobastank~

I'm not a perfect person

There's many things I wish I didn't do

But I continue learning

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That’s why I need you to hear

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

and the reason is You [x3]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

~pst~
I just an ordinary girl, have an ordinary life, live in an ordinary world... I am not perfect, I laugh, I get mad, I hurt....sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel, I am hurting myself by hurting someone else....I am not perfect...That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

me and myself~rose~

Headache & heartache

~Headache~

Damn! Sakit betul kepala nih...semua nak kena fikir...

Dari hal kecil sampaila hal sebesar gajah, semua nak kena fikir..

sakit betul kepala aku nih...Otak nih dah tired giler...

SAKIT KEPALA,huhuhu ='(

~Heartache~

Apsal semua orang nk buat aku marah ari nih..

Haaiiissshhhh, SAKIT HATI,huhuhu ='(

~pst~

Hope jangan sesapa ambik ati..sbb aku memang tengah serabut

me n myself ~rose~

E. m.p.t.y.

Empty...

I have been told that

I am,

So full of life and cheer

At least it is said of me

Because,

I feel so empty

Love is missing in my life

I think,

I am not asking much

To love and to be loved

Until my true love is here

~I am empty~

me and myself ~rose~

Its getting hot! Hotter! and Hottest!

Today, 17 Sept. 08 ~ So maknanyer dah 17 hari umat Islam berpuasa. Sedar tak sedar dah hampir separuh bulan kita berada di bulan Ramadhan. Masa awal puasa hari tuh, cuaca sejuk coz hujan memanjang but now....panas! panas! and makin panas! Aku pulak dahaga! dahaga! and makin dahaga, haisshh Rosmawar-chan...gambatte kudasai....

Shah alam ni memang semakin membahang, tambah-tambah di bulan Ramadhan yang penuh ujian dan rahmat nih, adushhh. Terik sungguh sinaran matahari. Peritnyer terasa bila bahangnya melewati kulit aku yang dah memang sedia hitam nih [bertambah hitamla gamaknya aku nih...] Rindunyer kat umah aku, rindu kat tepeng...Taiping nantikan kepulanaganku

Time-time macam ni lah terasa macam nak balik tepeng and lepak-lepak kat taman tasik taiping [latar filem SEPI tuh..]...Fuhh, nyaman sungguh walaupun ditengahari...

me and myself ~rose~

Alamak...kena tukar layout la plak

~new layout~

Heh!! Baru dua entry aku post dah terpaksa tukar layout pulak,huhuhu...I want layout yang ari tu! I want! I want! Tp nak buat macam mana kan...photo kat layout tu dah diremove or didelete[photobucket]..

baru rase nak riak sket dah kena tulah,huhuhu [Aku memang selalu kena tulah ~buat jahat sket, mesti tuhan bayar cash]...Aku rela dalam terpaksa. Yang pasti, rela atau tidak aku still kena tukar layout yang baru tu jugak, haaiissshh... So sad ='(

Anyway, hows my new layout? Is it better than before? Or is it ~biase-biase jer~....I like layout ari tuh sebab nampak mystery sket [its represent myself actually]....Hurmmm, tp bila tengok new layout ni lama-lama, terasa makin ok la plak....So, i just choose this layout je lah =)

Haaiiitte...Aku comform ambik layout nih... ngeee

me and myself ~rose~

My Soulmate

~soulmate~

"I do my thing and you do your thing, I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not here to live up to mine, you are you and I am I, and if by chance we find each other its
~beautiful~"

~finding the other half of a missing soul~

Soulmate? Two people who have never seen each other, and who live on the opposite sides of the world from each other live and love in their own way, but from some point, they start to move towards the same dream and feel the same physiological feelings. Two people who will meet by fate in a world full of mixed up fates.

So, should I started to find my soulmate or just waiting for him to come and meet me by chances....Where is he now? What he's doing right now?Is it he also think of me, like me thinking of him? Hurmmm....So, what should I do? Just waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting for him.....

I believe the time will come. I believe he is exist on this earth. I believe he will see the same moon as myself when the night come and I believe with my believe ~one day he will come to me~ and ~I will waiting for him~

me and myself ~rose~

Woa!! My first blog =)

I am a lil bit nervous...but happy too coz I am just creating my blogspot account, yeay!!~ Maybe I will only update my blogs in this blogspot : http//blossomingrose-mawar.blogspot.com...[tak larat nak update semua~friendster & myspace~] So, I will stick with only this blogs..HARAP MAKLUM =) Anyway, yeay!!!~

First of all, I want to dedicate a lots of thanks to Kelly coz influence me to do blogging in blogspot [before this I already have a blogs , in friensdter and myspace~can be said as active blogger jugakla]...to Ina and Karen coz try to teach me how to create a blogspot [me so buta IT meh, haiissh] Pening jugakla kepala nih mau create a layout yang sedap mata memandang~

this is my blogs layout looks alike =)

This is my first time in blogspot so, I think I'm happy with it [layout n anything yang related dengannya]. Actually, I try to create a beautiful blogspot but i am not good in coding and javascript matter so I just can create only this layout...n hope it will be ok....Yeay!!! I have a blogs in blogspot~

me n myself ~rose~